Rapidily Reaching The Reepers Grasp

As our hourglass of time slowly depletes we reflect on our past. Good, Bad or Indifferent!
Remember as a child how time seemed to go by so slowly?, it took forever for Christmas to arrive and now it seems like its every 6 months!

Plateau's of Aging:
I couldn't wait to be 16 years old, then 18 (legal and independent), and the infamous 21! (drinking age).
Then theirs this lull between 21 and 30. I think it was intended as a testing time. We've finally graduated high school, can drive, move out, get a job, and party 24/7 on our own terms. So for 9 years we sow our oats, go in/out of relationships, drink till we blackout, and continue our education to avoid getting a job.

As we rapidly approach our 30's we feel a need to find a partner, marry, have children, and solidify our careers. Others have divorced already, some have become single parents for one reason or another, and some have been smoking dope the whole time and haven't moved from the couch to this day! The thirties is a mid way point, to try to fix the wrongs, change paths in careers once realized they have become unhappy choices. And lastly start settling for what they didn't obtain so far in there life to appease family or themselves.

Men don't generally see age as a factor to their life's because men seem to be timeless, they age as distinguished, have a double standard about dating, change careers all the time to keep their income to the level of the their own expectation. Whereas women are over speculating their futures, with who they are now, compared to what they had dreamed of as teens, their personal body changes, their romantic lives, and their future stability. Meanwhile their clock is running faster and ticking louder, to have children, if they haven't brought there DNA splice of mini me's into the world already.

Meanwhile there are those who go unnoticed as they have failed there schooling, families, some died by over indulgence, poor choices, and some checked out early because they just couldn't take what life had to offer or the lack of offers presented to them.

By forty, married men are buying fast cars to stroke there ego's, having affairs because they think they can get away with it. Which is also a way for a man to feel they are still wanted by the female population, or those who want to explore the opposing gender. It also helps them to forget their current life's circumstances. All the wild, the women are feeling a lack of validation if they didn't pursue their dreams or careers, overwhelmed by raising children, and watching their figures gravitate and spiral out of control.

The rich get plastic surgery, hire expensive trainers, and use diet guru's to slow their process down, or rather cover it up. The middle class, read books, join local health clubs, and buy every info-commerical product to chase away their failures and love handles. The less fortunate just go on and blame everyone else for their demise.Granted their are a lot of other people in the world less fortunate than us, I know, and even those within the USA nowadays with this economy hit are experiencing new lows. Even the wealthiest are finally feeling the hit, whom seem to never struggle by lucks hand to them.

You know how you always heard at one time or another that some people believe we choose our parents, friends, and paths in life?.....their full of sh*t! Trust me I didn't pick any of them, why I got dealt this hand still frustrates the heck outta me. I am grateful for life itself, but everything in my life has contained a roadblock in one way or another, trust me 90% of people I know wouldn't have gone through what i did. God always says he never gives more than you can handle. But what he doesn't say is that life is going to suck.... a lot, and its that percentage of life test you'll have to overcome before your clock stops.

Well for me 50 is just 10 months away and its the worst feeling in the world. Friends laugh saying "Oh 50 is great, heck I'm 67 and life's just beginning"...Oh please who are they kidding?!, maybe for them it is, after all they've had full lives, careers, children, grandchildren, some even great grandchildren, some have gone through menopause and most don't have a house payment anymore.

All I see at fifty is men getting colonostomy's, and women getting hormone replacements and mammograms! You're going to be Half a Century Old, you've circled the Sun 50 times now, what do you have to show for it, or accomplished? Urgh.. I can't even write anymore about it, it just depresses me.

Now you're  probably wonder where am I in all this, I'm everywhere, I've experienced all except I didn't get to have children, Plus I didn't check out because I still have faith that sooner or later something will prove worthy of being alive. Trust me my tales would shock, surprise, seem impossible, and overwhelm your hearts so I'm avoiding it completely for now. But I will say this I started all my blogs to earn some extra cash to fulfill my personal dream. I just want to celebrate one birthday (My 50Th in September 2010) in a spectacular way. See, not once in my life did I have a birthday party, no one gave, no one offered, and even at age 18 I even threw myself one, and no one came...no, it wasn't because I wasn't liked, it just happened to fall on someone else's birthday too, who could afford a massive bash and I fell through the cracks as usual. So I've decided I'd like to go to London for a week to do my photography and enhance my art skills with new ideas. So if you like my articles, theirs a donation button at the bottom for you to help me have a wonderful birthday, truly my first. if not, I understand. Because Ive "understood" for 49 plus years already, nothing much surprises me these days. But at least I'm still trying to fulfill my smallest of dreams in life.

After all, if you reach for the stars you might hit the moon and heck that's 238,857 miles closer to those stars!

The Snorts and Snarfs of Life

I never use to snore, at least none of my boyfriends never complained. But then around age 40 I started getting serious complaints from my husband! I didnt believe him and figured he was just annoyed I woke him up cause the tv was too loud. Turns out he was right. At first he'd try to get me to roll over which worked for a awhile, then he'd say "Wake up your snoring!" but id be asleep and argue back "Im not snoring!" Then he pull the pillows out from under my head.  this went on for yrs. I thought maybe it was because I broke my nose 10 days before our wedding, or a sinusitis issue, or a weight gain factor. Well I lost the weight back then and it didnt change the snoring problem at all. Years passed by and some weight came back and now he just gets up in the middle of the night and finishes sleeping on the couch. Occassionally still today I hear him say he has to close the door cause he can still hear me snoring from out there. How embarrassing, eh?!

So I did some research and snoring can be a dangerous thing especially those who are overweight, sleep apnea for one! Well, that scared the hell outta me! Cause by the time I start to snore he'd be at work and if sleep apnea occurs he's gonna come home and find me dead! Turns out we snore more as we get older because our muscles become increasingly flaccid with age. Gaining weight can increase snoring because fat deposits accumulate in the tissues of the airway, making them heavier so they fall more into the line of airflow. So I've added some links below for those like myself who suffer this issue:

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/snoring/DS00297/DSECTION=causes
http://www.sleepapnea.org/info/index.html
http://www.nhlbi.nih.gov/health/dci/Diseases/SleepApnea/SleepApnea_WhatIs.html

So hopefully your partner loves you enough to stick around, put up with, or will help medically so you two both can get a full night rest. For me it became a guilt thing, see he goes to bed at 11pm and i started to go to bed later to avoid waking him up. First it was 1 a.m., then 2 a.m., then 4 a.m. and now its like 5 a.m. Fortunately I work from home so I can deal with this odd schedule. I wake around 11-12 and bedtime is about 4-5 a.m. So now I get uninterrupted sleep and he only suffers about 1 hour, but at least now he doesnt cuss me out for waking him up, Ive become more of an alarm clock to him.